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Better Now?
So I overcame my earlier resistance to adulting and have now done a few loads of laundry and have more in the works. Accomplishment! Yay!
I think I need more structure in my life, and also more simplicity. Or simple pleasures, maybe. I need routine and ritual. I went through a difficult breakup about ten years ago, and moved into my own apartment. It was the first time I'd lived alone without family near by. I was a mess at first, but I slowly started identifying routines that helped me feel content and comforted. One of them was my cup of hot chocolate, made on the stove with real milk and cocoa, about an hour before bed every night. Another was cooking a proper Sunday dinner for myself and watching the Sunday Disney movie while I ate.
I need to figure out what will make me happy at this point in my life. I have my Sunday night sleepover dates with Ben, eating dinner at his sister's house and watching Game of Thrones with her and her husband, and I love that. I'd like to have another standing date night each week, too. I want to see more of him, and I love his family.
I need a getting ready for be ritual for the rest of the week. Maybe a shower before bed and re-instituting night time hot chocolate or tea would be good. The nighttime shower would make getting ready for work on my opening days a lot faster, too.
I want to look into taking a class of some sort, too. A college course, a craft class, cooking or dancing lessons, flower arranging, or whatever looks interesting. Learning always excites me and makes me happy.
Maybe I want a part-time job. Something that involves things I enjoy. Maybe a yarn shop or a book shop. Something I'd be enthusiastic about, and that would bring in a little extra money. I could put that money aside for something fun like a vacation or stuff to make my house more my space.
I also need to find something physical that will bring me enjoyment. I need to be more aware of my health, and more on top of preserving and improving it. It's so strange to realize how far I've come from my twenties, when health was a vague, nebulous thing that I'd have to be concerned about someday. Now my doctor talks about watching for things like thyroids and cholesterol and diabetes. The time I kept putting off worrying about my health has arrived, I think, and now it's time to work toward making my body healthy and strong.
What I really want is a fairy godmother or a life coach or a babysitter. A personal shopper for my life choices who will put together a wardrobe of activities and thought processes perfectly tailored to my needs and preferences. That would be so super fantastic.
I think I need more structure in my life, and also more simplicity. Or simple pleasures, maybe. I need routine and ritual. I went through a difficult breakup about ten years ago, and moved into my own apartment. It was the first time I'd lived alone without family near by. I was a mess at first, but I slowly started identifying routines that helped me feel content and comforted. One of them was my cup of hot chocolate, made on the stove with real milk and cocoa, about an hour before bed every night. Another was cooking a proper Sunday dinner for myself and watching the Sunday Disney movie while I ate.
I need to figure out what will make me happy at this point in my life. I have my Sunday night sleepover dates with Ben, eating dinner at his sister's house and watching Game of Thrones with her and her husband, and I love that. I'd like to have another standing date night each week, too. I want to see more of him, and I love his family.
I need a getting ready for be ritual for the rest of the week. Maybe a shower before bed and re-instituting night time hot chocolate or tea would be good. The nighttime shower would make getting ready for work on my opening days a lot faster, too.
I want to look into taking a class of some sort, too. A college course, a craft class, cooking or dancing lessons, flower arranging, or whatever looks interesting. Learning always excites me and makes me happy.
Maybe I want a part-time job. Something that involves things I enjoy. Maybe a yarn shop or a book shop. Something I'd be enthusiastic about, and that would bring in a little extra money. I could put that money aside for something fun like a vacation or stuff to make my house more my space.
I also need to find something physical that will bring me enjoyment. I need to be more aware of my health, and more on top of preserving and improving it. It's so strange to realize how far I've come from my twenties, when health was a vague, nebulous thing that I'd have to be concerned about someday. Now my doctor talks about watching for things like thyroids and cholesterol and diabetes. The time I kept putting off worrying about my health has arrived, I think, and now it's time to work toward making my body healthy and strong.
What I really want is a fairy godmother or a life coach or a babysitter. A personal shopper for my life choices who will put together a wardrobe of activities and thought processes perfectly tailored to my needs and preferences. That would be so super fantastic.
